WHAT IF?

WHAT IF..

tomorrow will not be another day?
but a yesterday.

yesterday.
yesterday..

a rewind of your life.

what will you do?

michael jackson...this is it!

this is it..

it is maybe the time that you will perform for God in heaven..
celebrate with all the angel up there with your talents given by God..

no one can dance and sing like you do!

you are a unique creation of God..like everyone of us..
thanks for sharing your purpose to us..

everyone don't have a perfect life..
but we all tried to be fine.

we will all get there..i mean in heaven.

see you there when it's our time and sing again for everyone=)

God Bless MICHAEL JACKSON..!

free radicals

maybe they are enjoying in my body right now..happy cells conquering by sad cells..huhu..just have this idea because of the doctor we've met today..and free radicals is one of the topic..so i need anti-oxidants!(wheee..give me love)

she mentioned 3 major causes of death..and one of it is..STRESS.the others are cancer and stroke..

i feel so depress like..quitting my job and find my way home to a job that i want..i can't breath either..i can't imagine my self happy going back tomorrow to the job until friday..i will wear again the mask of happy face..but sometimes i cannot hide it anymore..i am just thinking of my loveones..they give me strength to still hold on to my job..

i don't see my self..progressive.

i dont feel i am..learning.i just feel so stupid.
because i let it happen to me.

i need to fix my self before i get older.

i am afraid not to be with my goals in life.

in 10%..i am still on 1%..

honestly, i feel the job isn't for me.

there are alot of people out there who deserves my job here..and me, i believe i deserve better too.

i hope and pray to continually help my family to..my loveones..my self..other people..

but it must begin with ME.

dissapointed

i feel so dissapointed
my life turned in this way
i let it go with the flow
though i don't know wherever it will go

so depressing and painful..
"i don't see my life like this"
but now i am here.
i let them control some part of my life..

why?

i wanted to do something else in my life..but..why can't i?

purpose driven life..

thanks i found you.

my personality disorder test result

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid Disorder:	Moderate
Schizoid Disorder:	Low
Schizotypal Disorder:	Moderate
Antisocial Disorder:	Low
Borderline Disorder:	Very High
Histrionic Disorder:	High
Narcissistic Disorder:	High
Avoidant Disorder:	High
Dependent Disorder:	High
Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder:	Moderate
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depression?stress?how will you know?

visit this site.
i know it can help.

http://www.medicinenet.com

Reminiscing =)

Just woke up this morning missing being in school. I miss the time that I am with my friends…ehem… TRUE FRIENDS and studying! Elementary, high school and college…I really love studying. How I wish I gave more than my best. I feel like I want to study college again with the course that I want and school where I want to study. Oh I remember. I was an active student during my high school. I was the organizations president and even class president. I enjoy everything and I was happy with my works. Then I turned college, which was the time I got weak. Hehehe… funny and very bad that I let it happened. I did not participate that often in class and even orgs. But I am proud to say…anyways, that I am a scholar and I got good grades =) but at the back of everything good happening something is still missing. My course is not my dream course. And the school, not the good school that I thought. So… well, right now, that may be the reason way I am lost. I didn’t follow the dreams I had before.

But I know, I still can make things right.

With the Jesus guidance and wisdom given to me, I’ll reach my dream and I am so excited!

dream....when will i reach you?

I want to do so many things in my life and I think on 100% I’m now taking the first percentage. Huhu… I want to have the job which I will enjoy, feel happy and comfortable. Currently, I am in a job that I realized not meant for me. I am thinking if there is still a vacancy in the company which I entered as intern. I almost cry. Huhuhu… just exactly the world in experiencing recession! Unemployment rate is increasing. So how can I quit my job? I am working for what? My family and my self….

Future… I want to have my own business. Earn money and save money... get rich someday!

I want to enhance my skills in drawing and computer. I want to take civil service. I want to study programming. I want to take my masters degree.

Lord Jesus… please help me make all my dreams in reality.

I want to help my love ones… help them in their success and good life.

As well as other people too.

Lord, we are many who are in need of your help… guidance... care…love… blessings…

You are the only one who can give us good life Jesus.

bad mood

bwiset

wha am i feeling right now?

What am I feeling right now?

Let’s do a talk.

So what are you really feeling right now?

Uhm…I feel that my heart will burst…it want to explode because of the things happening to me that I do not like...like how I made people treated me. The way they talk to me. The way they thought about me. I do not feel the respect anymore. I know I have a fault. I let them be that way. I just keep silent and not prove my self to them. But for me that is not the reason for them to look down on me.

“I have my own brains to think and free will” like my best friend told her self. “That was God given and I have to use it.” She is right!

I’m sorry for what I’ve said. But that is true. I know you are all giving me a chance to prove my self. But I don’t have the need to do it anymore. I am totally disappointed too. I thought I will have a good job already. The Lord is giving me trial. And I have to face it.

I’ll follow and do my dream. And I will start over again.