free radicals

maybe they are enjoying in my body right now..happy cells conquering by sad cells..huhu..just have this idea because of the doctor we've met today..and free radicals is one of the topic..so i need anti-oxidants!(wheee..give me love)

she mentioned 3 major causes of death..and one of it is..STRESS.the others are cancer and stroke..

i feel so depress like..quitting my job and find my way home to a job that i want..i can't breath either..i can't imagine my self happy going back tomorrow to the job until friday..i will wear again the mask of happy face..but sometimes i cannot hide it anymore..i am just thinking of my loveones..they give me strength to still hold on to my job..

i don't see my self..progressive.

i dont feel i am..learning.i just feel so stupid.
because i let it happen to me.

i need to fix my self before i get older.

i am afraid not to be with my goals in life.

in 10%..i am still on 1%..

honestly, i feel the job isn't for me.

there are alot of people out there who deserves my job here..and me, i believe i deserve better too.

i hope and pray to continually help my family to..my loveones..my self..other people..

but it must begin with ME.